Trying to be patient when life knocks us down

Patience, my worst enemy. I knew how difficult it was going to be, but damn these days it seems everyone that I know can’t get a break!

Life happens and I understand but, how many trials do we all need to go through to finally get to the top of the mountain? Everything just always seems to be hitting everyone at the worst times and all at once. Once we figure it out, something happens that brings us two-steps back again. I know so many people who work so hard, who can give themselves the motivation to keep going, but still end up back at square one, so again I ask. How much do we need give to finally get on top of the mountain?

The destination seems endless and impossible. In a time of our lives where we are stressed over how many jobs we need to work to pay off our debts, parents that just don’t understand that sometimes we couldn’t be that person they wanted us to be, or being scared that the road ahead keeps splitting into two. At the end of the day, maybe honestly, we just don’t know what we want. That isn’t acceptable though, our lives have been programmed to have a beginning and an end, and the ending needs to have some purpose.

I think we all play this patience game, because we are waiting for something to strike us so something can make sense. What makes sense? People who dream are told not to dream to big, because in reality that dream can’t happen right away, so don’t set your expectations high. I could be wrong, but I feel we constantly push each other down rather than pushing each other up. Reality is what we make it, and if we are the ones who are being patient, maybe we should act that others are waiting for us, so we can change the lives of those around us.

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Completely Blessed

It has definitely been a while since I posted anything on my blog. If any of you have been following, sorry about the hiatus my life has changed pretty quickly. I titled this post “Completely Blessed” because, that is exactly how I feel. I graduated college, took a trip to the Philippines to see my grandparents, bought a new car, and got my first “adult” job as a public relations and marketing specialist.

I guess the new challenge is making time for everything. I am still 22 going on 23, and life is still an open book for me. I want to experience the world, but it’s hard once you have bills to pay and I think everyone can agree with me on that one. It is a good feeling finally being able to rely on myself. Being away for almost 3 years, I mostly relied on my parents to pay for everything. I tried getting a job up at school, but a lot of places don’t call back once they figure out you do not live in the area.

Honestly, I did not expect to be working so early on after graduation. I interned for a small business which needed help in the summer of 2012 with social media and promotions. I did not get paid, it was more of me volunteering my time, but I wanted some experience before I graduated. My boss was a nice man, him and I kept in contact with each other once I left again for school.

Once I graduated, I contacted him again not expecting anything, just to ask if we could meet up for lunch just to catch up and maybe for me to get some connections. It just so happened that he was looking for an assistant and also more help in the social media and marketing area. The job pretty much landed on my lap, I had nothing else going on for me so might as well just take the chance. After that life started to take over and before I knew it, I had a new car in the driveway, waking up at 7am Monday-Friday, and paying my first set of bills.

It has been a crazy time, but I have been loving every minute of it. I wouldn’t change anything, I’m happy with where I am. I love being close to my parents, being able to with my boyfriend and friends. I do miss college sometimes, but everyday is rewarding knowing how great things are working out. I know it’s not always going to be sunshine and rainbows, but with how everything has happened, I do and still feel completely blessed. Everything is a lesson and now with experience I can figure out what I need to do, to get where I want to be for my future.

Distance

Distance, has become my best friend and enemy. Distance is a bittersweet relationship and definitely one you do not need to put any work towards, it is a relationship you just dive right in and see what happens.

Distance has created the best memories and also the worst. Being away from family and friends for the first time, has put a toll on family conversations, keeping up with friends, and now a new developing relationship.

Distance has given me the freedom I needed for a long time. Finally, being able to make my own choices and feeling like I can rely on myself. Distance also creates loneliness, and soon you might pile up a list of things you might regret and many nights waking up in empty beds and awkward looks in the dining hall.

What is really happening? Distance turned to loneliness, and loneliness turned to wild nights, wild nights turned into cold beds.

Distance does not just become a enemy of your current relationships, but also within ourselves and what I believe shows, how we constantly need to be reminded how we want to feel needed and special.

The new relationship is in distance due to being hours away from each other, but distance is also missing the touches, the intimacy, the smiles and laughs. Life is already going to fast to miss more opportunities of small joys like that.

Distance creates fondness and a strong bond. It gives you excitement when you haven’t seen that face you have been wanting to see. When you feel you were only able to see that face in your dreams, and now it is right in front of you.

Distance can get the best of anybody. Distance is not a weakness, it is an experience we have all done and shared. The difficulties behind distance, are broad that it seems to be one of those things, that we can all understand, but can only explain in so many words.

Distance, is a big monster to tackle, and for those going away for the first time. I am now a senior with 7 weeks left until I graduate. Embrace, your changes and when distance gets hard, always remember who can be on the other end of line.

Sometimes my life is being Clinton from “What not to wear”

Being in college you are always surrounded by new people and different experiences. An interesting part of starting the new academic year, is seeing the fashion of some students, the biggest reflection of what is in style is noticing what your peers are wearing. I am all about you dressing whatever represents you, but I do believe you need to have some sense and respect for yourself when presenting yourself to the school population. 

l am not saying go out in your prom dress, but dress like if you were going on a casual outing with your friends. I personally wouldn’t consider myself a Rachel Zoe, but looking nice is a big part of my life. My mother has always told me that dressing nice always makes a great impression, and in some cases you should care what people think of you. I highly doubt, that most of you are going to interviews in sweatpants and a shirt that you have put on repeat for the past 3 days. 

Being in your twenties, gives you a chance to be open with you style and see what works for you. Personally, in a college environment a lot of young women believe showing off skin is a form of fashion and being sexy, and it can be! but it needs to be in the right setting, going to your 9 am class in your shortest skirt seems a little to much. Men also, I do not to see your cut off shirt on the sides with your abs sticking out, I am not concentrating on that. Honestly, seeing a beautiful layered outfit is sexy and fashionable, and casual button downs with jeans for men is just as sexy. 

Again! fashion is form of expression and it can be whatever you want, this is just my view. I’ll tell you why I am writing this post, it is because the other day I was walking out of my class and I saw this student a young woman, wearing a sports bra and jeans. Hair in a messy bun and a zip up jacket open. I spoke to my friends with what I saw and I wasn’t the only one who thought this was unacceptable. You are in college, man or woman please look decent for school. Believe me, I have my lazy days too, sweat pants and a simple t-shirt, but jeez what I saw was just not okay. 

To me dressing up, makes me feel good, and it should make you feel good too! Dressing up makes me feel confident, again lazy days happen but, most of the time I am dressed up for school. I think it is also the public relations in me, being in the public relations major, majority of students are dressed nice. Honestly, I think it adds some friendly competition, because I think we are all very stylish people and I believe we all influence each other. Also being in this major, we get drill in our heads to dress professionally.

I just think we should remember that we should always present ourselves positively and openly, and that we love ourselves. I know this is probably overly said, but it is true, once you love yourself nothing else matters. Do not dress yourself having the attitude, “I don’t care” You never know what is going to happen during the day, and whether it was bad or good. You can always still look in the mirror and say “damn, at least I still look good today”